It's been a year, 12 days over actually, since I wrote in this journal. That's a little pathetic. Haha. Maybe the reason why I didn't update it is because not much as changed in my "art" world. I still have the same negative feelings towards my work, but I'm young and I have so long to improve it to where I'm happy with it. So I'm trying not to be as hard on myself I guess.

I've started painting with coffee. So that's pretty exciting. Maybe if I get something worthwhile I'll post it on Deviant Art. But we'll see.

I've been having the worst artistic block in everything. It's really getting to me. Especially in my writing. I feel like I should be writing something with some philosophical meaning but I have no idea what it is. It's a terrible feeling. I feel like I'm suppose to be realizing something so critical to my life, but I'm not. I think God is trying to teach me something important but I haven't figured out what yet. It's frustrating. It bothers me so much on a daily basis, I'm about to explode. Haha.

I had Deja Vu last month at school where it was basically the same thing. I felt like those 15 seconds happened exactly the same before and I was suppose to realize something MAJORLY life changing in those moments, some knowledge that would affect me so significantly... but I didn't.

What is going on with me?! lol

I need to stop life and listen very closely to what God is trying to tell me. I need to pray like crazy that he'll help me open up my ears. For real.



On a more positive note, my birthday is in on June 26th. : ] Oh boy, how exciting. Haha. I hope it's a good day. I've already gotten an amazing and totally gracious birthday present from Sean and my mom! A new television that was a lot more money than I wanted them to spend, haha. I am so thankful! : D <3

I also started a new job at a place called Image Factory. We make signs and banners and decals and stuff. I like it a lot. It's pretty fun, it doesn't even feel like a job. lol : ]

With that being said, I'm starting paying my first monthly bill! Hahha. It's only $10 for comcast in my room, but still! It's a start at least. You know. : D

Anywhen, that's pretty much it. I can't think of anything to add to this already lengthly journal. So, I think I'm going to end it now. lol I'll try and keep it up more now though.



Take care everyone and stay happy! : D